"Lean On Me" Literalism

There are times that the only person you can rely on is yourself. Over the years, I have developed the unattractive habit of looking to loved ones for the stability I lack during stressful times in my life and now, it's about fucking time I start learning some mental independence. I feel truly blessed with the people in my life right now but in the end, it really comes down to getting your shit together. No one can help you map out your next move - not family, friends, and sure as hell not a Tony Robbins-esque motivational pompous preacher. With each passing year, this realization makes me straighten up that backbone and build a tougher shell. Yet, like with many epiphanies and resolutions, their impression on me fades as time passes but the credible ones (the ones that I know I should learn from or stick to) always return to bite me in the ass.

My 2010 never-too-late-to-learn-nor-remember-mantra: To truly be self-reliant, it must be a conscious decision of my own volition.

As Spring blooms in Manhattan and the sun shines brightly, I can't help but shrug off my natural cynical pessimism and feel a tad bit optimistic about the upcoming months. Right now, I'm listening to one of my favorite Bill Withers song and I'm making a promise to myself:

With such lovely days ahead, I'm going to keep the 'leaning' to a minimum.